In their deaths

So earlier today this morning I found out that a good friend passed away. He was only 30 years old. It's really hard for me to come to terms with. Not because it was him that died but because so many people in my life have died. Specially young people. Bill was a wonder person. He was so fun and loving, he loved to sing and drink. No matter what he always had a good time at the bar even if there were "drama issues" bringing him down. I'll never forget singing Picture - Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock. It was our favorite song to sing together and when we I asked him to sing it with me, he'd never turn me down. He was such a joy to get drunk with and i'll be sure to have a drink for you buddy.

Bill is not the only person i've lost in my life. From most recent it goes. Bill, Steacy, Andre, Sherra, George, Dave and first were my Grandparents. All death's are hard. Steacy was one of my best friends, it was really rough losing her and I miss her everyday. Andre was like a Dad to me.. he was only with my mom for two years but he made her really happy. Losing him was like losing a piece of my mom all over again. Sherra, oh my dear Sherra, she is my cousin and she died when she was 21 years old. It's so hard to get past someone dying when they were that young no matter if you were related to them or not. We never really found out what the cause of her death was. It was a car accident but it was only her car in a ditch. What made her swerve off the road that night... we will never know. George.. oh Georgey .. he was my step uncle (no blood relation) but he was one of the best. I'll never forget the egg cracking over my head. It felt sooooo real!

When Dave died it was likely one of the hardest. We didn't get along that often but thats because I was the stuck up step daughter and he was the step father who I thought couldn't care less about his kids but thought enough about me. He still would be anything for me no matter what. I'll never forget when I was like 11 I got sick and he went out and bought my Ginger Ale. I forgot to make the pop flat before giving it to me and I puked all over the floor. The look on his face was priceless. He really didn't know what to do. But he took care of me.
What Dave came us in death he wanted to give us in his lifetime. I'll never forget that without him I wouldn't be where I am at. And I thank him.

To everyone I lost in my life, my best friends, my friends, my cousins, my uncle, my step dads and my grandparents. I miss you guys all the time and may you all rest in peace.

P.s - I hope your all looking out for me :) <3 Love you.
Steacy -- Love Love girl!