This is actually happening!

I haven't posted in probably a year or more but that's okay. I haven't really had anything good to say or share but now I think I do!

A couple weeks ago I found out I am pregnant! Yes that's right. I am pregnant again. After a year of trying and a lot of complications I have made it.

I'll tell you a little about how I found out and why it came as a complete shock. If your not interested in really personal and possibly gross stuff don't read past this part. Okay, so I had cycles that would come at all different times and it sometimes wouldn't show up it would just spot and not actually be a real period. I thought I was doomed for getting pregnant again because obviously something seemed very wrong. My family doctor would never send me to a specialist and it seemed to never get any better. Early December I went back to my doctor and demanding I see a specialist. He didn't hesitate and sent off my paper work. In the mean time he wanted me to get an ultrasound done. Since Iy was the holidays I don't get into see the specialist till the end of January.l. He processed to tell me it sounded like I'd need fertility drugs and that the ultrasound that i had at the end of December came back fine. I still left in tears because I didn't feel I had any answers but felt better since he was going to start really finding out what was wrong with me.

Two weeks later I was having a conversation with a girlfriend of mine about things id been experiencing. It didn't seem abnormal to me because no matter where I was in a cycle I alway had symptoms so I never thought into it. She was convinced I had to be pregnant. So I listened to get and bought a test. I didn't even tell Adam. The next morning I work up and took it. I stood there waiting and after a few minutes I went back to check. Surprise it was positive! I immediately starting shaking and couldn't believe it. I had to compose myself because I still had to get my 7 year old step daughter off to school. Once she left I booked an appointment with the doctor and the next day I got blood work done.

It took a week for the blood work to come back. They told me Tuesday but it didn't come in till Thursday. Every day I'd call to find out and it would e not there. I cried I was so frustrated. Finally on Thursday afternoon the nurse called and gave me the good news. I had good levels and I could go for an ultrasound on the 15th of February (which was 2 days ago now). My levels were 163,000. But I still am unsure how far along I am at this point.

So I waited almost a week for my ultrasound and the day comes but it isn't till 5pm. I just wanted to make sure baby was still sticking. We get there early and I was about to explode. I think I drank to much water. I was able to go in right away and even got to see the heart beat. He didn't allow me to watch or anything which was a big bummer but Adam did. He's very lucky.

The technician cannot tell me anything but I did get pictures of baby. Not clear but at least I have them. I'm estimating that I'm 8 or 9 weeks. I've been comparing my pictures to picture online. If I'm that far along I am shocked and super happy. Means I'm over my milestone and were both doing good so far.

My next appointment is in Thursday next week the 23rd and I'll find out exactly how far along I am. I'll likely have to get more blood work as well. But thats fine. So this is my story so far. I'll definitely write more as things happen. We got a long several months to go!